Thursday, March 14, 2013
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Being regular............
It's not what you think. Anyway, I mean I'm going to start writing more regularly.
But not tonight.
But not tonight.
Monday, January 9, 2012
Approval seeking and why it sucks
Since I've been born, I've been seeking people's approval. I know exactly how this started. My mom would hold a grudge against me, and even as a child, I would practically beg for her love back. She could do this for days, and I guess still does.
Anyway, I'm a huge screwup and am always hurting people's feelings. I almost always apologize when I realize that I've hurt someone. Lately, someone very close to me is kind of doing what my mom did. Accepting the apology, but then holding a grudge. Being cold and unresponsive, ignoring me essentially.
It struck me this morning, that the only person in my life who is ALWAYS on my side and never holds a grudge is my son. He's always telling me how I'm the best Mama in the world and how he will "never hate me". I'm always skeptical about this. How could he never hate me when others in my life, who are suppose to love me, act like they hate me sometimes? Why don't I trust this boy at his word?
Am I expecting too much from people? I know I love validations of my beliefs, but this is something I'm working on not caring about as much as I get older.
So, I'm making a vow today to make my apologies and MOVE ON. I'll do what I can but I can't control how the person I've wronged will respond. And I realize too, that this is their way of coping with hurt feelings. It doesn't mean they don't love me anymore. (Although the two major players in my life, have expressed to me that they will only take so much and then..............I'm out). So at what point will this happen? Will the shoe finally drop and they'll withdraw their love - once and for all?
I don't know. Time will tell.
Anyway, I'm a huge screwup and am always hurting people's feelings. I almost always apologize when I realize that I've hurt someone. Lately, someone very close to me is kind of doing what my mom did. Accepting the apology, but then holding a grudge. Being cold and unresponsive, ignoring me essentially.
It struck me this morning, that the only person in my life who is ALWAYS on my side and never holds a grudge is my son. He's always telling me how I'm the best Mama in the world and how he will "never hate me". I'm always skeptical about this. How could he never hate me when others in my life, who are suppose to love me, act like they hate me sometimes? Why don't I trust this boy at his word?
Am I expecting too much from people? I know I love validations of my beliefs, but this is something I'm working on not caring about as much as I get older.
So, I'm making a vow today to make my apologies and MOVE ON. I'll do what I can but I can't control how the person I've wronged will respond. And I realize too, that this is their way of coping with hurt feelings. It doesn't mean they don't love me anymore. (Although the two major players in my life, have expressed to me that they will only take so much and then..............I'm out). So at what point will this happen? Will the shoe finally drop and they'll withdraw their love - once and for all?
I don't know. Time will tell.
Monday, August 8, 2011
Stupid stuff people say
Where do I even start...................
Okay, Weston Price. Ever heard of him. Me neither. Okay, so he was a dentist who published a book back in the 30's that claimed that certain indigenous peoples diets, when changed (read: Westernized) they became less healthy within one generation. What I mean is he claims that narrow faces, crooked teeth, small body frame, etc. is not genetic but due to lack of proper nutrition during the mother's pregnancy.
Someone I know just posted this as proof that Weston Price holds the key to good health. Take a look and see what you think. Hippy hogwash? Or legitimate science.
www.westonaprice.org
Kanye Southwest
Okay, Weston Price. Ever heard of him. Me neither. Okay, so he was a dentist who published a book back in the 30's that claimed that certain indigenous peoples diets, when changed (read: Westernized) they became less healthy within one generation. What I mean is he claims that narrow faces, crooked teeth, small body frame, etc. is not genetic but due to lack of proper nutrition during the mother's pregnancy.
Someone I know just posted this as proof that Weston Price holds the key to good health. Take a look and see what you think. Hippy hogwash? Or legitimate science.
www.westonaprice.org
Kanye Southwest
My first post. August 8th, 2011
So due to some really crappy stuff happening on Facebook lately, calling out and laughing at morons, I have decided to vent my frustrations, share funny stories, and call people buttholes without fear of repercussion. AND, it begins.
Kanye Southwest
Kanye Southwest
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